heyloos!
lols, i think the vids list right...
zzz, i won't be continuing it anymore. :X
:/ it's not like anyone actually cares luhs, so yeh. :D
and yes, i added quotes to all my posts.

hais,
shoo bored.
=.=; sweetheart influence me one lah.
SHIATTT.
i just realised my library books haven't returned yet.
o.o; hair care lah. :P

hmm, i'm still thinking about him...
quite alot. :/
i don't know why.
i can't seem to accept the fact that he's gone and never coming back...
i'm not usually lidat.

normally i'll just emo and cry for a few weeks,
and tadahhh!
i'm back to my old self and totally over that person.
=.=; now, this is a special case...
it doesn't feel like it's totally over.
even though, hell, it sure is. :(
i kinda know that, deep down in the bikini bottom of my heart,
i'm clinging onto something that's gonna make me fall.
prolly that's why i'm feeling like this.

i'm silently hoping that,
maybe just someday,
i'll receive a message from him saying
"baby, can we patch back?"
... sorry, i dream too much.

it's kinda obvious he don't have feelings for me anymore.
he prolly said that he has feelings for another girl and not ready for a relationship as an excuse,
to get me off his back.
i'll never know.

i was wondering what he was prolly doing...
maybe he was having lotsa fun with his friends,
or new girlfriend,
or something.
happily, without me.
and i still remember clearly,
the last sentence of his last message to me was,
"please be happy without me."
to hell with that!
before he appeared,
i was already emoing bout some stuff.
but he was the one who made me happy.
and freak, he just has to make those godamn promises that he broke in the end!

he says that those promises seems dependable at the beginning,
now, not so sure.
_l_
wth lah,
i already told him in the beginning,
please don't break your promises.
and he said he's gonna make somemore!
but no, HE JUST HAD TO BREAK IT IN THE END.

i'm kinda already very sensitive bout promises.
and now he just made it worse.
i told him, he has no idea how much he's hurt me.
he said, he does, he's once went through it and know how the pain feels like.
SO WHY THE FREAKIN HELL DID HE STILL HURT ME?
sure, he knows how it feels like.
but he don't care,
he don't give a damn how i feel,
cos he no longer loves me and i'm not him.

HAIII.
feel so much better after letting out everything. :)