just now went lan to 'celebrate elaine's birthday'. d:
hesitated quite /abit/.
saw him.
it was like,
i walked pass him, he turn around and said,
"hey, going off already uh?"
i was kinda shocked.
then i reply, 'yeah.' and walked away. XD
i doubt he has anything to say anyway.

and then, when i out of lan,
around the carpark there,
i went like, wait a minute...
and then the moment suddenly hit me.
like just, 'DINGGG!'.
and everything seem to be clearer.
i realised that, 'HE'S NOT THAT HOT!'

i started laughing and smiled all the way back home.
it was quite an 'enlightenment' if that's what you call it.
a heavy weight seems to be lifted off my chest.
i felt light and happy.
wait, not just that,
i felt high and crazy.
like i could burst any moment.

when i was in my room,
i realised why everything seem to be a blur these days.
it's because i'm looking with the back of my mind.
like, daydreaming.
you know that kinda feeling?
where, you do see things,
but you're just not concentrating on it.
so i've been dreaming my days away for the past few days... @.@
hmm, quite pro lahs. XD

so, i'd like to thank elaine for begging me to go lan with her today! =D
thank you, thank you. (:

i guess i'm mostly over him already.
but there's still something inside that's bugging me.
i don't know what.
but if i'm not wrong,
i think i got it.
i need to answer myself that.
but i'm not too sure about my own decision yet so...
yeah.

a week or two till valentine's... x.x